Thursday, August 19, 2010

What Goes Around Comes Around

                                                   
Karma…
     Justice…
          Payback…

Whatever you want to call it – it sure can (and often does) ring true.

 That old “Golden Rule” whispers in your ear:


“Do unto others as you would have them do unto you” (Matthew 7:12).


I was talking to my dad on the phone recently, lamenting how I feel like I never really see my kids – like the time with them is always so short. He chuckled a little…I wasn’t sure why at the time. But then, I got to thinking about things like I always do…



I live quite a distance from my dad. I only get to see him once a year on average – if I’m lucky. We talk on the phone, but only every 2-3 weeks. For the longest time, my reasoning behind this was that my life is very routine and very little changes from week to week. Surely he doesn’t want to hear about the same thing over, and over, and over…


Right?


Probably not so right.


I’m learning this more and more as my own kids grow - move up…move out…move on. As they become increasingly independent and they begin to (all too quickly) move to the outer edges of my life.


My daughter, off to college…hanging out with friends…staying out late. Sometimes we don’t talk for several days.


Even my sons, who are still at home…busy with their friends…school…and splitting time between my house and their dad’s.


I wonder if they are ok…if people are treating them well…if they are treating themselves well.


When they are with me – or when we talk (or text as it happens more often now) – I want to hear about everything. What they did…who they were with…what they ate…I want to hear the whole story.


Sometimes, there really is no story. Sometimes it’s just days full of chores, homework, school, fussing & fighting and normal everyday life.


But I found something out…it doesn’t matter…it doesn’t matter at all that I hear for the 100th time how much they hate algebra, or how they wish they didn’t have to get up so early, or how annoying this or that person is – or anything else that happens in their normal routine. What matters is that I hear about it. That I just hear THEM…their voices…their laughter, frustration, joy, anger…whatever it is.


And then I think back on my relationship with my dad. How must he feel when he only hears from me every few weeks? If he feels anything like I do, there is sadness…there is loneliness…and there is also the knowledge that this is just the way it is sometimes, and how much you hate that fact. There’s where “what goes around comes around.”


I would be willing to bet that he is just glad to hear my voice. To know that I’m ok. Or even if I’m NOT so ok. I think when we simply share the regular stuff, we are sharing our true selves – our real lives – even across the miles. It gives others the opportunity to reach out, to feel connected, to offer comfort and support. It allows them to love us. Even from a distance.

Now I understand what that quiet little chuckle was all about…


1 comment:

Leanne said...

Reading this makes me 1) miss my own Dad and 2) think of what I have ahead of me as my children grow. I'm not looking forward to the time when they don't need me. Yesterday I told my 7 yr old that some day she isn't going to want me around her and she's going to need space from me, and that would be OK. I would understand but always be there for her. She told me, "No I won't, Mom. I'll always be here with you." Gees . . . do you think if I have her sign a paper about that now - that it would hold up in court when she's 17? Augh . . . such a touching post and reflection on life right now for you. Thanks for sharing this!

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