I have a confession…
I am envious. I have - *GASP* - Blogger’s Envy!
It sneaked up on me really. Being a new blogger, I never expected it – there was no warning ahead of time.
I was very excited and proud of myself for finally deciding to take the (BIG) step into the blogosphere. It was such a thrill to see my words in print – on the internet – out there for the entire world to see! What fun it was to (semi-)design my page!
Then came the followers! And the comments, ohhhhh the comments! What a RUSH to see people actually reading what I write! And LIKING it enough to comment!
And then I started to find other cool, beautiful, interesting, funny, informative blogs to follow. That’s when IT showed up. Oh, IT was very tiny at first – nothing I couldn’t handle! But the more I read, the more I searched, the more I followed – IT grew…
In record time, I began to feel like my blog wasn’t good enough – not pretty enough, not interesting enough, not hip enough, not, not, NOT!!!
I really had to step back and put a wall up between me and this monster that was growing by the minute. Why did I feel the need to be “approved of”? Why did I feel like my blog was any less than anyone else’s blog? Why was I so obsessed with what my blog was NOT, rather than being happy with what it IS? Not that I’m against improvement – but the essence of my blog needed to reflect MY life, not be a copy of someone else’s.
My blog is: REAL
My blog is: UNIQUE
My blog is: ME
And isn’t that the way things work? We begin to do something that makes us feel good about ourselves - something that we are passionate about, that gives us a sense of purpose - and then we allow little lies to creep into our head. The green-eyed monster is in there, telling us we aren’t good enough; that what we’re doing has no significance.
But me…I’m tossing that monster out on his bum! I refuse to listen one minute longer. We all are unique…we all have our very own interests, talents, and tastes. Just because perhaps only 1 out of every 10 people like my blog, that doesn’t mean it’s *bad*. It means that ONE person was touched by my words. And if ONLY one person was ever touched or influenced by me in a positive way, then it’s all worth it!
So, indeed…DO look at other blogs. DO explore and change and grow. But DON’T let that little, tiny, itty-bitty, green-eyed bugger try to change YOU. We need YOU to be YOU – there is no other like you!