Thursday, September 16, 2010

Fool Me Once, Shame On You...



Fool Me Twice, Shame On Me

I sit here wondering why, for all of my life,
I have allowed one person after another to make a fool of me.

Why can I not see myself
Through the eyes of God...who loves me beyond measure?

And why can't they?
What is it that makes some people feel so easy about using others?

What is it going to take
To finally say that it has to stop?


Because really, it's just a form of abuse...

Whether it is abuse from them
or if it's
self-abuse...

I haven't quite determined that yet.

There was a time not so long ago
that I would have been in a heap on my bed




Crying my eyes out


Now...



There's a certain numbness about it all
And I haven't yet determined what that means either.

This I do know...
I am slowly but surely
Being nudged to look beyond myself

To get out of my little pity puddle
And take a good, long, hard look at the tragedies
that are happening in the world around me


To move, to take action, to leave behind those things in my life
That really have no eternal bearing

And to finally fulfill my purpose in life...

To be the hands and feet of Jesus

I pray that you will join me



8 comments:

Nicole said...

Wow great post and something I needed today! My husband's ex-wife turns me into a person I don't like to be and that I'm not and my husband pointed that out to me this morning. Now I have to figure out how to not let her get under my skin!

scrapwordsmom said...

Awww, Doris...I am sad that you feel that way:( Well, I sure enjoy your thoughts and feelings...keep on blogging and THANK YOU for your kind comment on my blog today!:)

Leslie

Doris said...

I was a little sad at first too, until I realized that this is all part of the "grooming" process.

:-) It's alllll good!

Doris said...

Ahhhh, Nicole...isn't it awful how some people seem to have this power to pull out the worst in us? I completely understand what you're saying, but like you I haven't figured out how to fully combat that. There are days when I feel confident in who I am - but on those days when I'm not so confident, THAT's when they get to me the easiest.

Mama Hen said...

I think at times like these we really need to try and look at it as a lesson learned and fifure out how not to let it happen again. I tend to get hurt a lot because I am very sensitive and I give a lot of myself. In todays world, there are not always thank yous or the appreciation we might hope for. It can hurt. I guess we all have to find a way of being true to ourselves, yet protect ourselves at the same time. I hope you feel better! Have a great weekend!

Mama Hen

Doris said...

Oh Mama Hen! You are so right! I, too, tend to give a lot of myself and am very sensitive. I also tend to make excuses for other people's bad behavior, hoping that somewhere down the line it will change...but some people will never change. But I'm going to work on not letting it get me down, and move on in a positive direction! Thank you for stopping by and commenting...it means so much to me!

Kristina Churchill said...

Yes, I would let a friend of 25 years just walk all over me,I would continue to give and she take. I allowed her to treat me like a child...no more! After 25 years the friendship is done...I am me now, not a shadow of her... and so much happier because of it! Miss her, yes, want it back, never!

Love your blog will follow,stop by mine if you have a chance,

Kristina

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