Wednesday, January 26, 2011

The Sound of Silence


I breathe in….

                         …and out…
                                 
                                                     …in…

                                                                      …and out…


In the silence, I can feel the soft beating of my heart…hear the slight whoosh in my ears as I sit here in this place I’ve called home for so long now.

It’s times like this when so many memories fill my head.

It’s times like this when I begin to reflect on my life, remembering the good, the bad, and the terribly ugly.

It’s times like this when regret sets in…

…when shame hovers dark and heavy…

…when loneliness taunts from every shadowy corner…

…when tears brim and eventually spill…

…a heart wrenches and a soul cries out “why?”…

And in the silence, through the tears...over the sound of the heart that is breaking…

I hear His small, still voice…


{“I’m here”} – my breath catches
{“I always have been”} – I am humbled
{“I love you”} – my heart leaps
{“I always have”} – I believe
{“I always will”} – and now the tears are those of joy


With every wrong turn I make, he puts another turn in front of me, steering me back in the right direction – gently prodding me and guiding me.

Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.”   ~~Isaiah 30:21

I feel His strong and gentle arms wrap around all of me…


Heart
                    Mind
                                      Body
                                                         Soul


In the silence, I am in awe that He could love me…a sinner of the worst kind…and yet I have a knowing in this wildly beating heart of mine that, like King David, He sees me as a (wo)man after His own heart. It gives me cause to bow down in thanksgiving, here in this quiet place where it’s just me and Him.

The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.  ~~1 Samuel 16:7

The sound of silence is the small, still voice…His voice…

Listen...
He’s calling your name…

2 comments:

scrapwordsmom said...

Doris, this is so beautifully put. Reminds me of the times I was a small child, scared and lonely. I would begin praying and feel so very loved. Wonderful memories:)

Thank you for your comforting words on my blog about my Little:)

Steph @ MomKaboodle said...

Soooo beautiful. Thank you so much for these words. I feel them like refreshment to my soul. Thanks for highlighting His beautiful, wonderful words!
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